Sunday, December 1, 2013

Thinking and Pondering

"If you always do what you always did
You'll always get what you always got"



Someone once asked me; "Why do you always insist on taking the hard road?"
I replied; 
"Why do you assume I see two roads?"


As the sun set on another day... a lot of those old sayings rattled through my head in an unending kaleidoscope...

This day saw the transmission in the truck cratering... or mostly so. 5th gear blew out...

Parked out in the high desert is not a place to repair broken transmissions, and for a lot of reasons, I can't just take the old rig to a shop and leave the house here... So, tomorrow morning, I'll hitch up and with fingers crossed, I'll do my best to limp the 60 miles or so to lower altitude (with a failing tranny) and closer proximity to the repair shops and services.

Remember the old cartoons... where the guy is running on a treadmill or train track or some such... and some drooling, firebelching "Thing" is chasing him? It's right on his tail. He can feel it's breath on his neck...but he just keeps running straight ahead? 

And you holler at the screen; "Jump OFF! Jump OFF!" but he can't, because he's not got the time or space to take even the slightest step to the side. Though he'd like to he can't just step aside and let the beast just rush on by, even if he DID have the time to THINK of another way?

That's just exactly the world I feel like I've lived most of my life in. There never seems to be a period of time long enough to catch my breath and work things out in my head (let alone the economic side of life). I just keep running against the wind, doing things I don't necessarily want to do... because I can't corral enough "Time" (spelled; time and cash)... to work out a better way.

That is I'd bet... the toughest hole to climb out of... for people that feel like they're in a hole; Finding even the peace and serenity... in big enough pieces... to allow themselves to think straight.

... and even when they do... if they do... when they come back from that "Place" it's like the world knows what they're up to, so it whacks 'em with ever greater coldness and rapidity... The spirit takes a beating.

Even the times I've stacked up enough cash to "build that window of time"... one missed step and it all went cascading down the drain like sand through your fingers... arrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh.

It becomes pretty much the paradox of having to harden your heart to give yourself the time to open it up. The trouble with that being; Once a Heart is Armored... Softening it again is a double tough chore.

There's only one thing a fella can do; Cowboy Up. Put one foot in front of the other and keep on keepin' on... until he can find that faint little trail that leads to sunny slopes. (how's that for stringin' a half dozen cliche'd phrases into one idea?)

Like watching the sunset that started off this post... you know there will always be another sunrise. You just have to somehow, find the material to maintain hope... for me... keeping it in the wind nurtures that hope.



Grab Your Handles and Ride
Brian

5 comments:

Trobairitz said...

Love that first picture.

All you can do is keep on keeping on. Funny how once we get two steps forward we get knocked three steps back sometimes.

Hope you make it off the hill tranny and sanity intact.

Brian said...

Trobairitz; Getting off the hill with the tranny is lookin' better. A fella sent me some info which when I dug into it leads me to believe that I'll not have to worry about losing the rest of the tranny... It's Most Likely, a 5th gear issue with this particular tranny...

On the "Sanity Intact" front... uh... yeah... THAT sucker hasn't been Intact in probably, oh... 35 maybe 40 years! ;)

bob skoot said...

Brian:

One thing I've learned over the years is when things seem to be rolling smoothly, don't let your car "hear" you.

I hope that it's only a 5th gear issue too. Just don't shift into 5th by accident cause that may cause problems too.

bob
Riding the Wet Coast

Tina Walker said...

Brian,

The more stuff you have, the more stuff you have to manage. I feel for ya'. I really and truly do.

I'm going to write a post about a very similar topic right now. Reading your post helps me put things into perspective enough to do so.

Love is a painful thing. For me, taking care of those who count on me is becoming a burden (I don't mean Highway ~ he's so self sufficient!). The need to shed the remaining stuff and be less burdened his weighing heavily upon me too.

I'm looking forward to making our way to Phoenix soon. I hope you'll be in the vicinity to greet us. I'm hoping to see Harley Dude Paul too. :)

We need to ride. All four of us.

I have a friend who is very tuned into the Universe and the metaphysical status of the changes occurring. Most of us just miss this stuff, but she is really tuned into a higher vibration. She's been telling me lately about his force of change that's hitting some folks; this edge-of-your-seat-need-to-get-moving feeling that is pervasive. Read the other motorcycle bloggers and you'll see so many singing this song too.

Smooches,
Sash
www.SashMouth.com

Brian said...

Tina; Gonna be around southern arizona till April or so. Most likely Quite a bit of time out west in the Vicinity of Bouse.

Funny you should talk about the "vibes"... my "spidey senses" been triggering for quite a time. I believe the future is going to be "interesting" at the least...