Sunday, August 14, 2016

I Don't Know...

...what the hell I was thinking. 

Yeah its been a while. Not sure if anyone is even watching this page any more :( Guess I'll just have to go back to work and gain 'em all back!

It's been a year and a half and more of stupidity, blown up shoulders, blown transmissions, humongous vet bills, pneumonia and finding out those who swore loyalty, friendship and partnership were only fine "players" that worked me with their pretty words...and meant not a one. Can you spell 'Sucker' boys and girls? 

It's left me bankrupt and busted in body and spirit. No horses and no scooter neither. Just one damn fool, a bat shit  crazy dog living in a high dollar horse trailer that was supposed to be paid for by horses and partnership... yeah... just a gen-U-whine dumbass.

So... I'm parked in the wilds of western Montana clawing my way out of the hole. Yep! I stopped digging soon as I saw clear how deep the fool already dug the hole. So the good news is, it ain't getting any deeper!

I have another harvest coming up over in eastern Montana in just over a month to start filling that hole back in. THAT work is my "new" to me Raider to start me back on Freedom Road.

A hard nut to Crack will be divesting that high dollar aluminum boondoggle I bought last year. One way or t'other it will get done.

Then it's just one foot in front of the other reconstructing the life I did a fair job of deconstructing!

I have a "plan"... no idea how I'll get it done. Just know that the only way is to start. Pick up my foot and step off the cliff. I'll have to learn to land soft on the way down!



ask why said...

If one doesn't give a muse an honest "try" it will always be sitting on one's shoulder whispering in on's ear. I applaud you for giving' it a shot, and then calling it a day. It's pretty sweet music to rejoin a lost love and feel the joy return. Be Well

foleybob said...

Ya GOT to have a PLAN even if you never get there at least it's a goal to work toward.
I sold my Yamaha then I bought a Goldwing to stop the shakes !!!!

Scoobie said...

You will never grow until you allow your self to die (or be murdered as it were). Re-Creation (not to be confused with recreation) is the most beautiful, simplistic and empowering law of the universe. Some blogs speak to those unselfish truths so eloquently they simply impress. Yours would be one.

Brian said...

They don't have an emoji for a "shaking head" I guess... still working away... just now found comments that were "awaiting moderation"... yeah... somebody has done fell down on the job!!! Try to do better from now on...